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Enjoy the Turbulence

“Turbulence is life force. It is opportunity. Let’s love turbulence and use it for change.” ~Ramsey Clark

I’m writing this in my “notes” on my phone as I am getting tossed around like a rag doll in my plane seat from the turbulence as I soar at 30,000ft over the Colorado Rockies.

I’m looking out the window at the snow capped peaks and have a sense of “home” in my heart that I feel no where else than when I’m in CO. It’s like breathing the high mountain air (even the recirculated air in the plane) brings me back to life. 

That’s not to say that I don’t lead a full, vibrant life where I live in California. I own my own business (run out of my home gym). I have an irreplaceable community. Marcus’ family (also my family) lives just steps away. We have a beautiful home on a private lake. We are healthy. Marcus and I have a life most would long for. But there is ALWAYS something missing from my heart until I hit these mountains. Mental clarity. Peace of mind. I can’t explain it!

I decided to write this blog because as I’m riding along on this roller coaster of a plane ride, it made me think of my life.

I am NOT EVEN CLOSE to where I thought I’d be at this stage in my life. Truly on all facets! Not one! It’s not good, it’s not bad, it just is. No label.

Every choice I have made in my life has led me to where I am today (maybe). The good decisions, the bad decisions, the stupid decisions. Sometimes I feel like I’m hanging on for dear life! Sometimes with a death grip and sometimes with just the tips of my fingers. Sometimes this crazy ride teaches me a lesson and sometimes it doesn’t. Ever feel like this? Or am I walking solo here?

Right now, in my life, I feel like I’m hanging on with all my might. My candle is being burnt at all ends and it’s okay. It’s by choice and I know there’s an end in sight. But I guess I’m writing this to say that life is not going to be butterflies and rainbows. How boring it would be if it was! Even if you eat perfectly clean, exercise regularly, mediate, sit with yourself and do all of the self-care tips I talked about in my last blog, often things still will be bumpy and rocky and knock you upside the head (literally I just banged my head on the wall of the plane)!

I know I just said all the decision I have made up to this point have gotten me to where I am today, but I also don’t 100% believe that (hence the “maybe”). I think the universe, God, Allah, whoever you believe guides us, has a plan and even though we think we have some control, really we are just along for this turbulent ride to our destiny. So maybe, we should just breathe in that mountain air (or your equivalent). Feel it rushing through our veins and energizing our soul. Maybe we should all stop trying so damn hard, worrying so damn much and just enjoy the turbulence.

8 thoughts on “Enjoy the Turbulence

  1. Go Jen! First of all that pic rocks. I also believe God has a plan. We just finished our staff planning retreat for the year. Proverbs 16:3 was our guiding verse-“commit to the Lord whatever you do and He will establish your plans.” We set our goals and prayed for each one.

    One of my life lesson verses from my Olympic experience is Proverbs 19:21 “Many are the plans of a man’s heart, but it’s the Lords purpose that prevails.”

    I experience a lot of freedom and peace in decision making, as well as the outcomes because I believe God will work these out according to his best plan and purpose.

  2. I can totally relate to this blog! Especially your closing comment but to me it’s not that easy to do those things. I guess I need more self work. I think you were totally on point!

    1. Thanks for reading Annette. We all nee more self-work… it’s a continuous process and we just have to be happy with where we are but excited and ready for the next thing!

  3. I often think of all the directions my life could have taken, things I might have missed out on, but then there’s the flip side of that…where I am right now. I know there are numerous pathways we could be on, each of which would bring it’s own joys and trials. Like you, I believe that our lives have purpose in the direction we choose. Then we just have to find ways to keep our joy levels high! For you, that means plenty of time recharging in Colorado. I’m happy that you are finding happiness as you strive for that balance, and walk your pathway! 😘

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